Back at UR....again, for the last time. Last time moving in, last time paying that damn room deposit, and last time living in a dormitory. College is some otherness, I just keep thinking, this is the last time Im gonna have to do all this. Thats the ONLY thing thats getting me through it. The carrying heavy containers of books I didnt resell up flights of stairs, trying to cram my clothes into these little closets, trying to make an uncomfortable space a comfortable one because HEY, I have to live there for 6 monthes. Im done with it all. I was done last year but Im in it to win it so Im gonna finish things up and move on. Soon all this will become slightly dear to me. The last time of stupid things like going to d-hall or walking to class will become so sacred and will mark a period of my life that many say are the best years of your life. If college years are the best years of your life than I think life must be pretty sad. There has got to be something more out there than the little fun we had here partying and being silly. Dear God I pray there is!

Im in this room, got a roomate this year. (sad face) I really wish I could get back to my room in North Court. Basement floor, no windows, no roomate, just me and my space, my couch from the lounge down the hall and my own little exit. Ohhhh the Boom Boom Room. Had a few good times in that room. It was quite a pivitoal point that room, academically and socially. Good times. I'll have to make a trip over to housing and see if its occupide that would be the way to end the year. It would be a nice little space for me considering I need to drop out of existance this last few semeseters. Im trying to make that step from Robins to NYC in one fell swoop and no stops in between. NO trips to my Moms house, no summer job, none of that crap. Just jump right in, and get started. Why wait??

Pre-O starts Saturday, and freshman come the following Wednesday (sad face) followed by upperclassman on that saturday. Im gonna drop off the face of the earth and try to miss alllllllll of that. Not really up for the pointless banter of "Hey how are you???" "How was your summer?" "Where you livin this year???....OH ok , I'll come visit..." I know its formaliitys and I know I'll say it at least 100 times. Thats the way it goes but, it gets you away in a more timely manner and with less drama than if you just avoided the eyes of everyone trying to see how you've progressed or regressed over the summer and kept on about your business.

One Random Thing

Tierra Marie is super wack. I was feeling her single thenI heard parts of the album while in the car with Dwight and she was on some COMPLETE OTHERNESS! " I aint had no Daddy around when I was young, so thats why, Im wildin out...." WTF is she saying. Who writes a song about that crap. I know I was a fatherless child but I really think I came out fine, I know thats kinda debateable but this shit on her album is just wack. Plus Erica said she got booed this past weekend at a RICHMOND club. A RICHMOND Club! If our country asses booed her then you know she must suck.


Alright Im talkin shit and Im tired. Im misspelling stuff ( I guess I do that when Im awake too) so Im about to pack my bag and head to Moore.... UR is on some otherness

Dear summer, I know you gon' miss me

Listen here summer baby, I just believe it's the right thing to do
I got a brand new bitch, corporate America
She showing me a lot of action right now
And I know you put me on my feet and all, but
I mean, it's time for me to grow
You gotta let me go baby, you gotta let me go

I'm done for now, so one for now
Possibly forever, we had fun together
But like all good things, we must come to an end
Please show the same love to my friends
Dear summer


Damn, I cant believe that its over, just like that. After 15 years of summers I have just completed my last one for the rest of my life. From now on Summer is only a season, not a vacation or a marker for the end of a term...just a change in the weather when my dress can change and a sign of when I will have to stop pressing my hair. My last summer before I enter the "real world" and start behaving the way grown folks do. Jay-Z really hit it on the head with that one. It almost updates the feeling you get from Will Smiths "Summer Time". It makes me sort of nostalgic, especially about this past summer.

Top 10 Things I'll Miss about NY
1. HOT 97
Wakeing up to Dear Summer and Ms. Jones in the Morning. NY radio is like nothing else in the world. DC radio is good too but NY is on some otherness.
2. My Haviana's
My feet would get soooo dirty from simply walking back and forth. The city grim clung to me and though I thought it was the most disgusting thing ever it was the city attatching its self to me.
3. Subways
Oh how I will miss my F, 6, and Q trains. The best part of the subway was when there were drummers in them. The sound of the drums billowing through the tunnels of a station is a feeling like no other. The drumming makes you feel alive and makes you feel like there's a rhythm to NY life. I'll also miss the people that ride the trains, I've got stories about those people that you would not believe. NY residents will do crazy things all so they can get across town. The rats the roaches and all, I'm gonna miss everything.
4. My Dreamers.
Uof Dreams is a program made up of people who are dedicated to doing what they love for a living rather than doing what seems to be right or makes the most money for them. The dreamer mentality is one that is courageous and fearless. Not many people can face adversity, face singularity or face themselves. UofDreams allowed its participant's to be happy about their direction and help them to figure out what the direction is.
5. JOHNNY ROCCO!
I cant believe how much I gained from working with this man for 8 weeks. We bonded, I have him under my skin and I care about him. I feel like I understand some parts of him and above anything respect him for who he is. He's made me laugh so much and has taught me so so so much that I can never repay him.
6. 1204 beauty's
My Suitematies were my favorite people in the program and probably the only people I knew in the program. We were a smart, beautiful, and fun room and I miss those girls already.
7. The Old and The Bold
NY men are off the hook and I will miss them. The old ones have no problem talking to you and asking for what they want, while the bold ones will say whatever they can think of to get your attention.
8. NY Hustlers and Bootleggers
I've told stories about them already but no where else will people try to sell you batteries on the public transportation, and no where else will you be able to buy movies before they hit theatres. Bootleggers level the playing field for so many. Not only can the celebs where expensive thousand dollar bags and accessories, but you can too!
9. NY Restaurants
New York has some of the greatest restaurants in the world. You can eat anything from Hotdogs to sushi and Thai food to fine Italian cuisine and back again. You can grab your meal from a Sabret stand and eat as you ride the train or eat lying down on a bed like the Greek eating expensive delectable delights at Duvet.
10. The Masses
Clods and Clods and masses and masses of people. They are everywhere, your never alone whether it be ,morning , noon or night, you can find at least 10 people within 5 feet of you. The city that never sleeps is also the city that never goes home. This aint your "It's 2 am-time to go home-there's a city curfew-the streets are clear city" Not even, this place is bustling constantly! Your never alone and your never without a place to go. The night clubs close at 4 but that doesn't leave home the destination. After hours spots open at 3 and go until 6 am. New Yorkers don't waste a moment.


I'm officially gone. Sitting here in Dumfries VA listening to the silence of suburbia and rural life. VA seems so southern to me now, so country and so small. I'm going through withdrawal and it doesn't feel good.

As far as my to do list...

1.Find metro-sexual Mos Def protege who was fathered by a descendent of Malcolm X and mothered by a black panther.

Well I didn't find anyone worth dating or marrying but I did see a few cuties. I'm not really ready for anything like that anyway, I really feel like I wanna be one of those career women that entertains once in a while but doesn't have an old man. Kinda like Oprah :)

2. Meet, touch, and get picture with Mos Def

I failed, I'm sad to say that I did not even come close to seeing the Mighty Mos in the flesh. I went to Brooklyn everyday and never saw him. Awful. The sad part about it all is that he is performing August 7th with Talib Kweli and Jaguar Wright for $20. I cant talk about it anymore or I might have a breakdown.... next.

3. Attend poetry club

This, I also did not get to do. Unfortunately, I will have to save that one for next time. :(

4. Shop

I really tried to make a special effort to be good and watch my spending. I didn't want to have to call my Mom for money so I tried to limit my shopping as much as I could. Toward the end, once Erica came I kinda went wild, not too wild but lets just say I'm gonna need to rest my Debt card for a while.

5. Drink

I turned 21 the day I moved in to my apartment and I had a great time experiencing all the joys of legal drinking. I've tasted some of the most interesting drinks that you could think of and learned my threshold for alcohol. Don't worry, I never got drunk and really don't plan to. Remember, when you drink you go for a swagger NOT a stagger. Drunk is never sexy!

6. Visit Museums

I visited a few nice museums and say some of the great art that New York is home to. My favorite was the Chanel exhibit at the MET. It was wonderful to celebrate the work of the House of Chanel and to see the direction that Karl Lagerfeld is taking it.

7. Reconnect with NY Fam

I got to get together with my Uncle and Aunt for dinner a few times and got to reconnect with my cousins which was so much fun. I'm happy that I got to see them and catch up.

8. Scope out areas I'd like to live in.

Its official, I will be residing at 70 Washington Place Apartment 9N. All I have to do is get $700,000 and its mine LOL

9. Go to 106& Park ( just kidding)

This was really a joke, Free is gone and I still don't get AJ's hair so I can enjoy it from home.

10. Go to a club that doesn't close at 2am

I didn't do as much partying as I thought I might have liked but I did get to go to a few nice places. Finally when I left the club it was because I was tired, NOT because its closing, or because there was a fight. Still in search of a really fun club but I can feel that my clubbing days are coming to an end. I don't plan on meeting a man and engaging in a serious relationship with him from the club so now its all about backing it up a little and having fun with my friends.

Summers done for me yall, no more of those responcibility free, nothing to do Junes that comes with summer vacation, but not the end of my Wild Junes either, I mean it is my birthday month, and I am grown .

Peace Yall.

What A Week !!!!

Wow, it's been a crazy week and weekend. Two guest one week and lots and lots going on in between. The Highlights? Ok...so....
My lovely friend from John Marshall High came to visit me. Tamara stayed with me for the week and it was super fun! She came with me to work, she came with me to UofDreams weekly seminar, and pretty much everywhere I went except the gym(lol). It was great to catch up with her since I haven't seen her in like 2 years. We visited Time Square and it was almost interesting. We were stopped by weird guys and had a great time being silly in the city. We took a picture with Sponge Bob Squarepants while he sung to us "My Cheri amour" it was very cute. Wednesday we went to the seminar series to hear Deanna Latson speak. Deanna Latson is a widely known health speaker. She promotes healthy eating habits and taking care of your body to prevent unnecessary illness. Her presentation was extremely informative and really persuasive...I mean she almost had me thinking of becoming a vegetarian. After her video that showed a doctor pulling strings of collected fat from a mans arteries (ewwww nasty, I know) I was like THAT'S IT, IM CHANGING MY EATING HABITS. The real deal part of it was how she had devoted her education to nutrition to try and help save her father. Her father was suffering from multiple illnesses. When he adopted her suggested diet he lost 50 pounds and was able to stop taking all the meds his doctors said he couldn't live without. Serious shit ! Tamara and I really tried to consider a vegetarian life, but had cookies later that night....

Thursday was my suitemaites birthday. After a long day of errands for Johnny, Tamara and I decided we would join them for drinks. When we arrived at the Blue Fin we perched ourselves at the bar. We had the cutest little drink, the Blue Fin, Alize with a cute little Swedish fish in it. As we chatted and relaxed an older gentleman approached and began to chat us up. He explained that he had been at an award ceremony that was dull and was glad that he had met some interesting people like us to talk to. This older white man told us how pretty we were and how nice we were to talk to and after ordering us drinks proceeded to invite us to his hotel room at The W to "watch tv". We agreed and ended the night spooning with our new friend Gary.....Not the fuck even, we refused and decided that it was high time we headed home. After our 4 drinks (really two depending on the glass) I of course had a buzz(me being a light weight and all)and thought EVERYTHING was SUPER amusing. We headed to McDonald's and had burgers and apple pies before we retired to the Palladium.

Friday was on some otherness considering I had Tamara in town, had to pick up Erica at 1:40 that afternoon and still had errands to run for Johnny while making every attempt to make it to the boutique by 3:30. Tamara and I went on a journey in Chinatown to find knockoff bags. I still have the same mentality that the knockoffs are impositions on the art form called fashion design and feel increasingly sickened to spot Fendi bags on girls who wear Old Navy flip flops. We picked up Erica and tried to salvage the day be running the errands and ended up making it to Johnny's by 5.

My going away dinner with Johnny and Patrick was Friday night and I decided that it would be better to have Erica and Tamara come with rather than return to NYU. We had fabulous Thai food which is my all time favorite. I think I had a food orgasm b/c everything was sooooooo goood. Johnny and Pactrick were ANGELS to me and my friends and treated us like Princesses. They ordered appetizer and drinks for us and just made my friends feel comfortable and happy. To top it off they paid the whole bill for me plus two broads they had only know for a hot second. I had a Vodka and Cranberry(what has come to be my favorite drink) and was of course SMACKED. Everything was extra extra funny and I could not contain myself. I didn't want to drink, considering I was with my boss and have hopes to work with him later but he encouraged and insisted and it did help me to have a good time. I was really a site, at half a drink consumed I was giggling like I was 2 years old. I had such a great time with them, and even started to tear up thinking about not being with them everyday.

Saturday we slept in and met the lovely Julee , Jenn and Erin for lunch. The luch was fun and it was great to catch up. That night we planned on going out but ended up pretty pissed off with NY for its bad night clubs. 40/40 was wack and on some complete otherness as to who they were letting in the club. As Erica and I stood in line we wondered if we were overdressed or if the club wasn't all that we thought it was. We ended up leaving there before we got in and headed to a rooftop bar to chill. Previously we attempted to go out but ended up at a gay nightclub. When a women invited us to her all girl club that she was starting, we kindly told her that it wouldn't be a fun party without men. She took her cards back and suggested to us some places more suitable.

Otherwise I did a bit of shopping and had a great time experiencing the city with my friends. Im so glad that they came, I felt like I was in a different New York b/c of it. A better one that offered much more.

On Tuesday I walked by the Virgin Mega Store and saw a real live sypher! I was amazed and wanted to stay but was afraid they would not appreciate the groupie-esq attention of two girls who don't rap standing around them watching. I saw the cute NYU boy again standing beside the sypher(which made him cool by proximity ). I told Johnny about him and he laughed at me for not speaking to him or trying to find out his name. Johnny suggested that I wear lip gloss to the gym since I see him at there sometime. His other suggestion was that I walk up to him and grab him by the balls and say "IM CASSANDRA BROWN" I nearly died when he suggested that but considered it briefly, I must admit. I felt a little bad because I wasn't able to dedicate my full attention to Johnny that week but I hope I will make up for it this week. Johnny and Patrick have been insanely nice to me giving me opportunities and being really kind and genuine.


Pactrick got Erica and I tickets to see Blue Man Group which was very kind of him.
We saw the Blue Man Group performance today and were really amazed. I coudnt believe some of the things they did and just how funny and entertaining it was. With paper everywhere and cool light effects I we thought we were at a Rave party. We both agreed that if we were high on XTC or slightly drunk we would have experienced the show on another level.

August 1. What a mess. I feel like summer just started but I will be glad to get back to school. I'll be back to NY the minute I get a break from school and really whenever I just want to be in the city rather than Richmond. Moving day wills soon come and when it does, I wont be looking back to Richmond.

-Peace Yall