Resolve: 2007

Wow 2007 is here already. Truthfully it feels like we should be coming up on Halloween. Maybe that's that post grad thing. Ive been feeling this resolution thing for a while now as I'm sure you've noticed, and I'm really glad that the new year has started even though it doesn't feel quite so new.

Ive been big on astrology lately(among other things) and I just had to read my 'scope for 2007

Gemini:(May 21 - June 20)1) You've felt stuck, and you're sick of it. Your top resolution is to stop pretending to enjoy what you don't - including the company of that coworker who's been undermining you. 2) That relationship issue you've been stalling? Stop stalling. Make it or break it. 3) If relocating for work is an option, go for it.4) By October, end that argument with your sibling or neighbor.5) Plan to be in your own home by the holidays.


pretty accurate. The funny thing about horoscopes is that they don't ever really tell us things we don't already know but it amazes us that others know without us telling them. I had a psychic reading this past summer... did I blog about that.... and he told me things that I already knew but again the kicker was that he knew them without me uttering more than my name.


So here we go.... the resolutions....

1. Do not buy magazines before the first of each month

Every month I buy maggies as soon as they hit the shelves and by mid month Im yearning for more when I really cant say that Im totally satiated from what I have. I keep my mags. They are reference points of inspiration that allow me to be the fashion connossier that I am. A little deeper study will make them that much more of a tool for me.

2. Refrain from a helpless complain

So Ive come to realize that Im a complainer. Not in exactly the helpless woa is me sort of way but in the "can you believe this shit" sort of way. Other shock and aww aint gonna make things diff. Keep it moving, onward, progress, havent those always been my so called motivators...why should little matters of annoyance be exempt from that same attitude????

3. Get Money, Fuck Bitches

Im so tired of shaking my head at dumb asses that just begg the question " what the fuck" at their meer existance. This year Im done asking where the hell things went wrong for them because usually you can spot that shit a mile away. My main concern, "gettin money" as my boo would say. Its not all about the benjamins, but its all about the options. Get that in your spare time.

4. Eat healthier

Since Ive been home my mom is slowly converting me into an organic semi vegan. The only reason its working is because she knows how to put her foot into about everything she makes and the aroma she can create from a kitchen using only vegatables and Tofu can have any unsuspecting person fooled.

5. Read more

Ive already detailed why this is so important, not only is it simply vital to keep up but its part of my effort to really enhance my mental state.

6. Start running again

Exercise is always good and really I miss the peace of mind of a few laps around the track, plus wanting to drop a few pounds is never a bad thing.

7. Keep New Years resolutions

The hardest of all resolutions. The main problem is that by Feb most people have forgotten what they resolved to do and end up settling back down into their normal routine. I hope that with this hard copy/public copy I will be just a bit better at keeping up.

Well thats it...wish me luck and hopefully next year I'll be able to say I kept my resolutions. We'll see :)

*****Beep! Beep!********

So, I bought the most amazing shade of nail polish that I have ever experienced in my entire nail painting life. Its a wonderful shade of shimmery brown from Red Door that makes my skin look so damn chocolaty that if put to the test I'm sure would have a 98.9% return rate on a kiss upon the very supple top that is my hand. Plus Ive managed to paint both hands without painting the whole top of each finger then removing the excess.
Oh God .....ME!
*Excuse my me-gasm, but I just had to ensure that this little horn of my was still in working order.

Bringing Back Sweet Memories

So, as I unpacked some of my things that I had boxed up after I left school last spring I came across somethings that made me reminisce on me and the me back then. It seems like that time in my life was worlds away from where I am today and I cant even begin to imagine what I'm gonna be like another six months from now. As I placed all my books from African American history with Kibibi McShelton, and Post Soul with Bertram Ashe back onto my desk and radar I laughed at some of the notes and things I had. I really need to finish/start some of those books I'm supposed to have long read, enjoyed and absorbed . I came across my proclamation night letter. Having received it long ago I guess I didn't really have time to marvel at myself and fully understand the advise I wanted to impart on myself in all my Freshman naivety and intelligence.




Cassandra Brown,
2002 Freshman Year. As you prepare to wrap up your final year of post secondary school please keep in mind that you have so many things in store for yourself. Be sure to remember where you have come from, what you have been thru and what you aspire to achieve in the coming years of your life. Hopefully you have learned to strive for goals and reach them, how to love and truly value yourself and how to be a positive person. Other things like getting a BMW and staying with Dwight David Parrish Jr. are nice to have but are not the source of your accomplishment. It being September 2006 you are very ready to move on to bigger and better things that await you and they will continually await you. You have made it through Econ 101 and CORE and the many other challenging classes that your major has required you to suffer through. You should be ready to start your mid level job with J.P. Morgan or Merril Lynch and marriage looms later in life.
I love you since I am you and I know I love you more than anyone else in your life with the exception of God. Keep him in your life and you will be continually happy.

Peace Out
Cassandra Brown






It hilarious to see how much I differ from the day that I wrote this letter to myself. I remember thinking very carefully about what I wanted to say to myself the three years later that I would read it. Funny the things you know but are sometimes reluctant to fully believe. Anyway, I felt a little inspired by my own word and even a little proud of myself for being so earnest. Now if I had only been smart enough to leave my self a $20.....guess I didn't see being broke in my future.


Peace

Cap City

I'll skip the formalities.... cause if you know me at all you know why I havent posted in umpteen years.

So being back in Richmond is sorta like visiting your elementary school. Everything is far smaller and far less seriouse than it was when you were caught up. It's been good to see my cirlcle and get back in the swing of VA life but Im ready to leave again. Im realizing just how slow it is and how much I miss NY. Soon enough I'll be back in the city doin what I do best in NY. Staying in the house....lol!


So Im flying low on the radar for a few monthes so I can reinvent myself. Now when I say that I dont mean like Diddy. More ina Jay Z Kingdom Come sorta way. I mean on some real shit like, changing what I read, changing the way I think, changing up my look, and basically getting on some other shit.... my shit! Im talkin life plan with life changing goals every four years. Ive been doing massive amounts of self reflection and im doing a little butterfly type thing for a while. Dont be mad when I dont post for monthes on end. When Im done everything will be revealed and I think you'll appreciate it and if you dont one thing will reamain the same.... I wont give a shit.


Smooches