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so much going on these days. Just completed the last week of my last fall semester. It's bitter sweet but more sweet than bitter. (LOL) Chillin like a villan right now, just because I can. I have lots and lots of things I could be doing but Im in a bit of a funk right now.
Im probably just tired. Even though I was finished with everything around 10:30 last night after Ngoma Practice(which was light) I stayed up with the Sorors talking on the phone like middle schoolers. I went to bed around 3:45 and had to get up for work at 9:30, so Im tired.

I had my show last night and it went ok. Thanks to everyone who sent me well wishes. My sweet sorors bought me pink tea roses which are on my desk right now. Thanks girls, you all always come through just when I need you!

I dont have much left. An extra credit paper for Group Comm., a final paper for Post Soul, and a entrance presentation of my line for Honors. Thesis. Basically I'll be chilling on campus ultra hard. Getting little things done and relaxing the way life should allow.

I cant wait to get to New York. Im still deciding when Im gonna go but Im going just to be up there for the Christmas season. Chill with my NY buddy and see my fam. I think I wanna go see the Color Purple on Broadway and the tree.

Done for now, I wanna take a nap before work.
lol
peace

Interesting

"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved."

December 1, 2005

Gosh, Lots going on. Too much, way tooooooooo much.

My Christmas Tree is up (notice how I capitalize). I have to say, shes grand. Danielle and I went Tuesday to Target to get them. We planned on getting real ones but got extravagent with the decorations and figured a reusable tree for the same price was better. Espesh since we could use them next year for our apartment :) Sooooo, my tree is super cute as planned! Pearl garland, lights, and mini pink candy canes(sour patch flavored-my fav!) I treated myself to the big 27 piece box of Ferrero Rocher, Im exercising control with them though, I've only eaten the top layer. Snaps for me!
I decided that it would be an Advent Tree, so I would get myself a few gifts and wrap them up. Each week I would open one and enjoy it! Great idea, I know. I'll keep you posted on what gifts I get from myself.

I have to remember to blog about the kids I babysitt. I babysitt 4 little kids and each week could be an episode of a reality tv series. For example....
(Setting: Me at the sink washing dishes after dinner)
Elizabeth (4 year old girl): Cassandra.
Me: Yes Elizabeth
Elizabeth: Why is your skin so dark?
Me: Because I am black.
Kate(6 years old girl): Your not BLACK like my shoe
Elizabeth: No, her skin is dark brown, its not black

(Setting: Me at the dinner table while the twins eat their snack)
Elizabeth: Cassandra. Is your hair straight today?
(I guess she couldnt tell)
Me: Yes
Elizabeth: Well, you can make your hair straight like mine, but you cant make your skin light like mine!
Me: No Elizabeth, I cant.

(Setting: Me in the kitchen cooking dinner)
Elizabeth: Why is your skin so dark?
Hannah(4 year old girl, twin of Elizabeth) Is your mothers skin dark?
Me: Yes, it is. It would have to be in order for me to be black.
Elizabeth: Your mother must live in a place close to the equator.
Me: Yes, she is from a place close to the equator.

All seperate days might I add. They seem to have lots of questions about blackness and I find it a little funny. Anyway, I'll have to blog about them at some point. The 9 year old is the most fun, I'll fill yall in soon.

My show is in less than a week. Im nervous. I hope it comes of well. Say a prayer for me please .

Moment of silence



















































OK. Lets keep it moving

I am an employee of the GAP Inc. May I help you???
I enjoy it, the work is pretty easy and the people are mostly cool. A few biotches, but my boss is super sweet and always looks out. I love being at the mall all the time. Im spending a little much these days but Im also working mad hours so hopefully I'll still be in the black when I remember to balance the books. I have to get better at things like this. I went to renew my cell phone plan and the lady asked me how many minutes I use. I had no clue. I dont count....I just talk. She asked me how much I text message. I had no clue. I dont count.....I just text. I need to get that together before I graduate. Its not very grown womanish of me. I'll get it together.


AKA Party Tomorrow :) Dont know what Im wearing yet but you should come if your in the RIC!!!




Yeah, Im pubbing on my blog.


Have a good night. Of course I have work to do... whatever.
BTW I got a B+ on my Post Soul Paper entitled RIP Bling Bling. Snaps for ME :)

Night

Brace yourself, this is a loooooonnnnnngggg one.

Yeah, I've been busy, so I havent been on my blogging game like normal. So much to talk about, I dont really know where to begin.

The List
1. Homecoming
2. The Love Experience
3. 90's Party at Nancy Reagen
4. Christmas
5. The Love Experience Part II


1. HOMECOMING

Homecoming was outta control. I knew it was gonna be crazy but I didnt relize how crazy it was gonna be. Of course when everyone arrived we all just fell back into place like we'd never left and we all still lived in North Court. I ride by that place sometimes and it seems so odd. Its not the same without my girls there, and Im sure if I still lived there it would be like desolate land. Come to think of it, I only know of two black people who live in NC. Its crazy how times change. S. Dot arrived on Friday while Danielle and I were at Wanda's Chi'ing it up. Dumb ass Sam didnt tell anybody except me when she was arriving. What an idiot, she knows damn well I dont have a car!!! HOW was she planning on getting to campus. Anyway, Danielle being the true sister she is saved the day. We chilled at Upscale until it flowed like the WG's (don't worry, no identity crisis here!) and laughed at those hair books where the people allow "beuticians" to "do" rather... create monstrosities on the tops of their heads in the name of style. We laughed at the two red head haters that work at Wanda's . Ragedy Anne and Andy usually sit in their chairs, waiting on some thug to come in for their braids to be re-done. When I emerge from the dryer with my hair staning on end, they usually snicker like the biotches they are, but by the end of my visit the only thing they could do is stare . Cassy B 1 other bitches none!

Friday night, some of us attended Alpha Eta Sorors Pink Ice Ball. A very nice affair I must say, except for the girls getting their eagle on in prom dresses. Tons of fine a** frat as usual and good music. Sam, Keisha and Kim B. came to rep those Spider Alum and we had a nice little time two stepping conservativley, the way Rho Mu usually holds it down.

Saturday our Homecoming Celebration came of flawlessly. Seeing everyone was splendid and I wish it could have lasted longer. To see Sorors with children, careers, living fabulously, I felt so inspired. A little sad that my E-Money couldnt make it but I knew she was handling business up at law school. I joked with her the other day about the big things shes doing. ERB for President we joked, lol. Mrs. President, I dont think its necessary to have pink leather interor on Air Force One. LMAO. Didnt go to the game because shopping is more fun to me than anything else in the world. House shopped with Erica for most of the evening and had a good time actually. I cant wait to have my own place and do it like its supposed to be done! Im so proud that shes buying a house, I cant wait to see it! When I get there,Im gonna be outta control. Saturday night, I hung out with the grown folks as usual and went to a few clubs. Its Richmond so you gotta go to a few before you find one thats half decent. We landed at the Cherry Lounge which was hosting its 30+ night. LMOA!!! Dont worry, there werent any old men trying to hump me but there were lots of skeet skeets everywhere which crazy outfits on. With a drink suggestion from my ADP I partied to that standard Rho Mu two step and laughed at Sam and Erica. "Is that a stegasourus" LMAO Sam is outta control!!!!! There were really some sights to be seen. Romney kept us laughing at her crazy dancing, and when a guy I recognized from high school came by and asked to take a picture of us I kinda ignored him. Romney said yes so I took the pic. When he handed me a 35mm camera I proceeded to snap a photo but realized he hadnt wound the camera up. Not sure what he wanted to take ictures for. Maybe he was making a scarp book or some shit? Anyway, Sunday Sam peaced early that morning and I was sad to see all the alum go. I'll make it to the homecoming game when Im an alum. It will be grand, Ill come back all fab like my sorors did this year and maybe even cheer the Spider Football team on. We'll see though


2. The Love Experience

A friend of mine keeps telling me Im too busy for a man. He says if I had one, Id never have anytime for him. The truth of the matter is I know exactly how to cater to my man. My friend listed in his away message all these things he would do for his woman. Rub her feet, run her bathwater, buy her chocolates, give her a messag. While all that is fine and good, what really would make us happy is if men did some useful shit. Don't buy me chocolates!! Buy me a #3 from Wendy's when I miss D-hall or have to stay up late doing a paper! Dont give me a messag, call when you say your gonna call and come when you say your gonna come so I dont have to get all tensed up in the first place. Dammitt...... ok do messag me but, the point is, those conventional ways of pleasing women that you see on tv dont really work. If Im pissed at you, a bath is the last thing I want, do some other thoughtful shit, like coming correct from JUMP!!! I just feel like mens concepts of women are so skewed. THey dont reallyknow how to communicate with us and therefore they dont know what we want. Now I know half the time I dont know what I want, and I dont want ladies to think they get off the hook in this relationship jig but come on guys, if you keep looking to tv for you game, what do you expect. Your not making your self any better than the next guy by saying you run bath water and buy chocolates and flowers.


3. 90's Party at Nancy Reagan

So I went out with some friends from senior thesis and costume design. I'd had a convo with my girl Lauren the other day about my obsession with Asian boys, and she put me on to the Fresh Kicks Crew that frequents Nancy Reagan. The Fresh Kicks Crew is a group of Asian boys who specialize in either making or buying the flyest of fly sneakers. When we arrived at Nancy Reagan I was a little concerned. I'd tried to get my friends to go to this place a while ago our sophmore year when they advertised their hip hop night on our campus. Gussied (as LV would say) we arrived at NR and decided that it wasnt exaclty our speed and it wasnt. We hadnt left the car yet so we took it over to another local club that we felt more comfortable with. NR was fun in a beatnick kinda way. The girls I was with werent beatnicks but they were cool girls. We danced to some of the best 90's tunes (Tootsie Roll, Push It(Salt and Peppa), and other 90's jams) I did spot a few Asian cuties. Too cool to dance, they sat on the wall and I danced with my girls and glanced every now and then. The floor was stickey and as usual the WB's and G's didnt have any spaciel perception, or rythem so I found myself having to stop everynow and then and close my eyes to get the beat back. We had a good time and really danced. It was a good time and I think I wanna do it again. Sometimes its good to get out of the dark booty shakin caves that we all know so well.

4. Christmas

OMG I cant contain myself. I am Sooooooooooo excited about christmas, its outta control. I really dont know what it is this year but I have a renewed excitement for the season that I cant wait to get started. Ive already put together my Christmas list and have an idea of who I'm buying what for. I got my cards last week and I cant decide if I want to do envelope liners or special closure tabs. It really is that serious. I have the music goin and I just bought more. Check out Ashanti's Christmas album wich really does the trick for me or Mariah Careys Christmas Album. Ive also been listening to the AOL christmas station alot it has all the good Temptation versions of Christmas songs that I love. I saw the gigantic tree at Stony Point and almost had a coniption!!! Grace and I were in Starbucks a few days ago and we turned around to see snow falling from the sky. I gasped in excitement and slight horor at the snow. When the Starbucks cashier informed us that it was a special that the mall was putting on every thursday at 7 at the mall to pump out fake snow to create a winter/christmas environment for the season I was relived and a little sad. I was def lookoing forward to being in my rooom all bunned up in my bed and the snow falling outside. I think thats what I love most about the holiday season. Therea alot of love and romance about the season that just isnt present in other times of the year. So, Im getting my Christmas tree when I get back from Thanksgiving break and the rest is down hill from there. I took a job at the Gap that Im kinda excited about b/c I'll get to be in the thick of all that holiday madness which I'd love. I get a nice little discount and the pay is decent too. Lets hope I dont give it all back to Gap and Banana by the time the season is over. Christmas is almost here yall!!!!!!!!!!

5. The Love Experience Part II

So I had a deep convo with my homie Tonia. She bought up a good point that I hadnt really considered in a while. Is it the person that we miss most now when we are single or is it the experience? The QT, the latenight convo's, the assurance that somebody cares and will take the time(even if they only do it because they are required by position to do so), the Friday nights togther??. Or is it the actual person that we miss. I think its the difference between loving someone and being in love. We concluded that its most imporant to take the time to know what you want from youself before you try to explain or get someone to do it for you.

Common said it best....

If Love is a place, Ima go again

At least now, now I know to go within

How beautiful Love can be

On the streets love is hard to see

Gotta reach that frequency

Loving You is Loving Me.

On that note, im gonna call it a night. Finally caught up!!! There Samantha, now go and rewind those pornos the old men returned late!!! LMAO

Lots and lots to blogg about, I promise I'll update this weekend.

Topics to update on

Homecoming :)
The Love Experience
90's Party at Nancy Reagen

Yeah, Nancy Reagan

Right now its time to hit the sheets b/c I gotta work in the AM. Dont know who I thought I was going out on a Thursday night, after NGOMA and Step Practice. Guess I had extra energy since I didnt go to class today ( Ashe wasnt gonna get the best of me today!!! I refused!) Peace Yall, I'll get it together.

My Hump

What you gon’ do with all that junk?

All that junk inside your trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,

My hump, my hump, my hump,

my lovely little lumps.

(Check it out)

I drive these brothers crazy,

I do it on the daily,

They treat me really nicely,

They buy me all these ice-ys.

Dolce & Gabbana,Fendi and then Donna

Karan, they be sharin’

All their money got me wearin’

Fly gearrr but I ain’t askin,

They say they love my ass ‘n,

Seven Jeans, True Religion's,

I say no, but they keep givin’

So I keep on takin’

And no I ain’t taken

We can keep on datin’

I keep on demonstrating.

My love, my love, my love, my love

You love my lady lumps,

My hump, my hump, my hump,

My humps they got u,

She’s got me spending.

(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.

She’s got me spendin’.

(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me,

on me, on me

What you gon’ do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

What u gon’ do with all that ass?

All that ass inside them jeans?

I’m a make, make, make, make you scream

Make u scream, make you scream.

Cos of my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump,

my lovely lady lumps. (Check it out)

I met a girl down at the disco.

She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.

I could be your baby, you can be my honey

Lets spend time not money.

I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,

Milky, milky cocoa,

Mix your milk with my cocoa puff,

milky, milky riiiiiiight.

They say I’m really sexy,

The boys they wanna sex me.

They always standing next to me,

Always dancing next to me,

Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump.

Lookin’ at my lump, lump.

U can look but you can’t touch it,

If u touch it I’ma start some drama,

You don’t want no drama,

No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama

So don’t pull on my hand boy,

You ain’t my man, boy,

I’m just tryn’a dance boy,

And move my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,

My hump, my hump, my hump,

my hump, my hump, my hump.

My lovely lady lumps

In the back and in the front.

My lovin’ got u,

She’s got me spendin’.(Oh)

Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.She’s got me spendin’.

(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

What you gon’ do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,

Get you love drunk off my hump.

What you gon’ do with all that ass?

All that ass inside them jeans?

I’ma make, make, make, make you scream

Make you scream, make you scream.

What you gon do with all that junk?

All that junk inside that trunk?

I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,

Get you love drunk off this hump.

What you gon’ do wit all that breast?

All that breast inside that shirt?

I’ma make, make, make, make you work

Make you work, work, make you work.

She’s got me spendin’.

Spendin all your money on me and spendin’ time on me

She’s got me spendin’.Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

"My Hump" by Black Eye Peas LOL

On Being Grown

When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

I Corinthians 13:11

Im fine folks...really!!!!

Sometimes I wish I were more quite so that when did choose to be quite and reserved people didnt ask me a million and one questions about whats wrong with me. Im not a lier, if I say Im fine.... then Im fine..Or MAYBE I just dont wanna talk to you!
Dont force me to be mean and just say mind your own damn business!!!

But really, when I dont wanna talk or seem to be reserved let me be!! Dont start with the police interigation because it wont get you anywhere but snapped on and pissed at me.

Fall Break 2005 --- Fashionista Gone Wild

OMG Keyshia Cole's CD is speaking to me !!!!

FALL BREAK WAS REFRICKULOUS AND SPLENDIFEROUS!!!!


My last fall break of my college career. I went out with a bang as far as fall breaks go!!! NY, Philly, I'm a Jet Setter!!!

Caucus on Saturday was fun. We sat with some really cool Sorors from VState and traded stories about campus fun. Of course we were all in aww at the fun they get to have, while the best we could do was talk about our pow wows. Its all good though, we have fun in our own way, but it would be different if we were at a black school or prob any school except UofR. ERB surprised us and was there. I talked to her the night before and she didn't even tell me. I was so glad to see her. I needed a little motivation from my prophyte to get me through till homecoming. I'm so geeked about homecoming!!! I cant waite to see the all the Sorors for our 10th Anniversary!!! While Danielle and I were on our way back from PA we saw one of our alum on the road she honked and was so excited to see us!!! Nothing like a soror to make you muse at the splendor the sisterhood! (hmmmphhh)

So I rode up with Danielle to PA before I went to NY. Me her and our neo had a nice little ride up and I got to meet there parents again. It was really nice to see them and be in a different town. Before we went up we stopped at my sisters house to see it. She just moved in and the last time I had seen it was when it was bare wood beams and cement. The house is sick and I cant wait to be rich!!! Danielle and I went out Sat night and we had a nice little time just chilling and enjoying being 21. Sunday I went up to NY. If the city were a man Id marry him and give him all the kids he wanted (AND I DON'T WANT KIDS!!!) I mean,he could get it, have it and keep it for whenever he wanted it again. It was grand to be back in NY and with the current state of affairs I'm really feeling like pulling an S&TC type thing and dating the city for a while. I talked about this earlier but it seems like EVERYONE'S biological clocks are ticking and everyone needs to have a companion. Anyway, I stayed with Johnny Sunday night and had a good time with him and Patrick and his friends Hiyme and Michael. Brooklyn was at its finest and wind was blowing so hard that I got a taste of how my winter 2007 is gonna be. Better get a few more coats and some those lovely plum leather coach gloves I've been eyeing!

Monday I woke up when I wanted to(ahhh the joy of fall break) and went to the city. I hooked up with my AB FAB Perfect 10 and had lunch with her. Again another one of those great moments when a soror comes to the rescue and lets you know the deal on life, putting it into perspective and really acting as a role model. Lunch was fun and I cant wait to be up there so I can handle business the way she is. I shopped the rest of the day and ran around the garment district turning the charm up to the HOT PINK Dangerously Sultry level to wheel and deal my yardage prices as low as I could get them without tempting the Indian men into dragging me to the back of their fabric warehouses. I returned to Brooklyn to check out Johnnys Store and muse at all the things I wish I could afford. The BJ bag I had been eyeing since summer was finally at a price that wouldn't haunt me and send me spiraling into debt and calling into the Suze Orman Show for advise. Then the most heinous thing happens. A TOTALLY undeserving hooker comes in and swoops the bag out of my life. I was debating between the gold weathered Betsy Johnson tote which was only $100 from $236 or the Fresh Jacket that I had also fallen in love with over the summer and had seen on the likes of the illiterate Julisa of 106&and Park (YEAH I SAID IT, THAT BROAD CANT READ TO SAVE HER LIFE, COULD BET SEND THERE HOST TO SCHOOL FOR MEDIA COMMUNICATION OR SOMETHING???? dAMMIT mAN!!!) and some tip drill in the latest Sean Paul Video. Either way I could have walked out of NY with the BJ bag for damn near free including the lovely discount Johnny affords me or the Jacket I have been dreaming about since August. This BROAD is gonna ask "Is this real lether, cause I just bought a bag that someone said was real leather and it aint" BITCH!!!!! This is Betsey Johnson!!! not Payless or Kim Li in China Town!!! She paid with a $100 bill, clearly it was pay day b/c she didn't even have normal bills to make up the tax that I confirmed was standard procedure even for sale items, even though I wasn't really sure. I had to flee, I left and walked over to Forte Green to take pics of the Brownstones and dream about my future, check out my neighbors and see how pleasant my corner deli was when I needed something that I had forgotten the grocery to deliver. All were perfect and I headed back to the store to have dinner with Johnny and the gang at JOYA!!!


JOYA, the best Thai I've ever had in my life. The Chicken Kang Mousuman made me wanna slap my Momma and send her ass to cooking school, plus the 3Vodka and Cranberry's I had consumed had me really really really "NICE" ( Just learned about the difference between NICE and DRUNK-Thankyou Dante) So we chilled and made a ruckus singing SCISSOR SISTERS AND Gwen Stephani in the middle of Joya. I swear I had to use the bathroom like 4 times in the hour or so that we were there. I'm such a light weight (LOL) after we were full and I realized that anymore alcohol and I wouldn't be able to make it home we left and made the trek home. I remember Johnny and Patrick laughing at me cause I wouldn't let them carry my bags. I kept saying " IM A CITY GIRL.... I CAN CARRY MY OWN BAGS!!!" They laughed and we rushed home, Madonna was on TRL earlier and it was TVR'ed for us to enjoy. I slept for a while and in the AM headed over to the Port Authority for my ride back to PA.

I haven't had this much fun on a fall break since my freshman year and this definitely tops that !!!!


I got so much done. I finally got real African fabric for my line. I don't have to put up with that crap Hancock calls African cause its Orange and has a man beating a drum on it!!! (LMAO) I finally saw King of Prussia mall, (only the best mall I've ever seen on earth... better than Tysons Corner... YES BETTER THAN TYSONS!!!) I got my Trapeze Coat AND IT WAS ON SALE!!!!! CB 1 OTHER BITCHES NONE!!!! and I finally decided on the black Benetton shirt instead of the white or pink. I'm solid with it too Blacks the New Black they say and I look fly in it!!!

Now I'm back at the damn University of Richmond. Back to this grind, and all this other BS. MAY 14th, get your ASS OVER HERE!!!!!!

Just some things that have been on my mind ....

Its Friday Night and I'm in chillin soooooo hard. I love it because, I don't have to be anywhere, I'm not late for anything, and I don't have anything to do for anyone except myself. I'm getting some serious me time in and its long over due. I'm def gonna use this weekend wisely cause fall break is in a week and then its all down hill from there!! Tonight its all about getting organized and taking care of me then tomorrow its some work I've been meaning to do. Might hang out with Erica then back here to chill and go to my ACE's birthday party. She's turned 22 today and I cant believe it! I cant imagine turning 22, 21 was like whoa but 22 is GROWN!!!! I guess that's what its all about but I have some time until then, Junes a little ways off.
Its raining Cats and Dogs in the RIC and its bringing back sweet memories of when I had a man. The dreary weather equaled serious QT. Its all good though, I still have QT with myself, taking care of the things that will get me far in life. It seems like having a man is the hot topic right now. Soooooo many people are getting married to their boyfriends or having a man that its kinda crazy. Is everyone going through a midlife crisis or something???? I just don't get it. I mean marriage is something I hold sacred and I don't want no half steppin lame askin me for my hand with anything less than a little blue box in his hand. I had this convo with my sorors the other night as we digress from programs (lol) at our committee meeting /powwow. Promise rings, engagements and all that other crap... not now.... and as far as I'm concerned not ever! If you cant afford a ring for me where the clasp aren't bigger than the stone than forget it and just tell me your gonna be my boyfriend but "fuhreal fuhreal" LMAO Its not all about the ring but it represents a lot. It reps all that you know about me and all that you want for our relationship!! I'm sorry Kay, Finks, Zales, the gumball machine... aint gonna cut it. " I aint sayin she a golddigger, but she aint messin wit no broke nigga." Hey it bes like that

But seriously you have to look at it like that, you cant rush into things. Having a man aint all glory and holding hands and walking in the park, and whispering sweet nothings and crap, save that for GONE WITH THE WIND OR PRIDE AND PREDIGESTED. I feel like if you don't argue at some point(not everyday,but at some point) then HOUSTON WE HAVE A PROBLEM!!!! Everybody's quick to find a man, girls are going to such extents as to meet guys off the internet....FOR WHYYYYY????? Its not that serious. I mean we have a case in Richmond right now where a girl is missing and another is apparently dead( May she rest in peace) from being involved with an internet relationship. You never know who your messing with and it could land you in a spot that you don't wanna be in.

I aint prechin' folks, I'm just sayin take it slow and don't be ashamed to focus on yourself My Mom always says... out of all your mothers children you should love yourself the best!!! Cause at the end of the day, nobody can love you the way you wanna be loved but you!!


Off the soap box and laying it down

Ever Since I Could Remember I Been Poppin My Collar and They Better Put My Money in My Hand!!

Im in such a good mood! I better hold on to it.

The 3-6 reference....Yeah, Tonia again!


Trying to keep up with life. It doesnt stop and if you do it will move on without you. Thats something that we always have to remember. Ive been dealing with alot this past few weeks. There is so much going on with my family (good :o) and :o( bad ) but its all good I maintain! Ive been trying to keep up with school too. Trying to decide a path and all of those other senior things that have to be done. Its all about making dreams come alive now, fantasies have to come real now. Im on a grind thats out of controle but its working for me and Im feeling the benefit.


I heard from my professor that I got my grant for my thesis project!! Im so excited, I can do my show now and when I go to NY I can shop till I drop. Im not buying LoVu bags but fabric and buttons and dye and beads and ..... I could go on and on!!! I cant contain myself. Ill get to see Johnny and Patrick and visit all my favorite places :o) and if Im good I will get to do a little shopping for myself (wink wink)

I gotta go read myself to sleep but Ill holler later, Ive got lots of random blogging to do.

Peace Yall

Just A Few Words.....

I had a pretty good weekend. Lots of First Fam Love and chilling/getting things done. Caucus was grand and I love seeing Sorors! I dont know how we do it but AKA is really all the pretty girls, I just looked around at my sorors from my region and I wondered what was left on their campuses, cause everyone was just top notch! Anyway...the drive was good and the Pow Wow was fun. It was slightly odd being with out my Prophytes and my Sorors who graduated but it was all good. When we got back we chilled with some Frat and I just love them even more! Our Frat from BG did a poem for us and I almost attacked him! I mean DAMN, Im not a groupie but the words get me EvERRRRy TIme! And I quote.........

"...... a Masters in Kama Sutra...."

Dammitttt MAN! I love poetry and I just love a person who can understand and appreicate the value of a word !

Of course... As usual I got mad ish to do! Papers , Reading, Grant Proposals etc. too much! But I gotta get that Brownstone so I gotta get on my Academic Grind so I can peace!

I'll let Big Pooh help me get focused and maybe a little Coke will help me stay up.

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Shake That Laffy Taffy :)

That's my song now... Tonia's fault. She always puts me on to good music.

I'm off to Greensboro today for Undergraduate Caucus. I'm excited to meet more fab Sorors and to be on A&T's campus. Hopefully I'll get to catch up with an old friend of mine in the area and just chill with my LS and Neo's :)

I'm starting to get that graduation itch! I picked up my cap and gown for Proclamation Night and tried it on. I must say, GRADUATION IS SOOOOO ME! I cant wait to find a cute dress to wear underneath my robe so that after I walk across that stage in all my splendor, I can de-robe, de- mortar board, fluff my hair (fro' vs. straignt ---I haven't decided) and glide right into my graduation party in Keller Garden! Its official, I'm blowing this joint in T-minus 8 month's! Its gonna be a hard road between here and there but once its done I'm sure I'll be glad. We had our first party this past weekend and it was interesting to see so many people back who had graduated. There presence could only mean one of two things.

1. Post-grad life is so ultra wack that you cling to the last amusing thing you experienced
or
2. They are so ultra wack that they are clinging to the last amusing thing they experienced.


If you ever see my overage ass at an undergrad party snatch me up with the quickness and send me to the nearest Happy Hour/Bar Lounge. Somewhere where the age limit is 25 and up, and there are more chairs than dance space. I cant accept that post grad life is that lame. If it is than I will just have to stay in my house cause its all about progression NOT regression!

OK I have a problem :( Everytime I go out I end up spending like $100. I'm not quite sure how this came to be but I have a hefty stack of receipts that taunts me. I'm not in debt and my credit card isn't causing any adverse affects to my credit score but I just need to slow it down. There's always some shit to buy, or some damn thing I just gotta have. I look at it like this, I only live once and if I don't enjoy life now when will I? So YES to the Longchamp Bag, YES to the IPOD, YES to the Guess Sale, and YES YES YES to the Prada Perfume. Things don't make me happy but they do assist :) I think its my repayment for working so hard. I'm finding more and more that the Jamaican in me is coming out :( I have like 3 jobs and from what I hear I have that mean Jamaican girl thing down to a T! Not sure where it came from but I guess its in my blood. The good thing about it all is that though I may be spending a little more I have also been saving more, which balances everything out. I'm trying to plan out and project my future so that I can glide right in without any speed bumps slowing me down. I've decided I want a Brownstone in FortGreen Brooklyn. I wanna live BMS and have a small dog by the name of Mrs. Trixsy. Mrs. Trixsy and I will live alone in our 3 story brownstone with no one visiting but my fam, the grocery delivery guy, my sorors and a gentleman caller or two :) I've decided I want to be a work-aholic! I wanna put everything into my job and launch The House of Cassandra Garnett by 27! No kids, no husbands, no bothers!

Complete Otherness

Ever since I arrived on campus I have been going like crazy. Meetings, work, class, AKA. I don't know how I do it really. I don't even really know where to begin with this blog because sooo soo much has gone down.
I am currently in the midst of Rho Mu Week. This week will be the most grand Rho Mu Week that UR has ever seen. Tomorrow is thursday (or today is) and the craziness starts. Its crazy how much I love this sorority! I thought it would be fun and nice to participate in. You know do service projects here and hang with Sorors there, but it is really out of this world. I cant believe how much fun and growth I have had since I joined. I find myself more interested in doing things for AKA then my own work for school. I get it all done though. Don't get it twisted, the academics come first. A pretty dumb broad is not hot in anyone's book, especially mine. I love my Sorors, even though they get on my nerves sometime, I love them to death. They have really changed my life and I appreciate them for that.
The school year has started in full force. I mean back to back meetings, being double and triple booked and have projects and work that I have to rush and do. Monday I had a critique that lasted about 4 hours. I was going out of my mind! Im lovin senior thesis for art. I have my own studio and get to basically do whatever I want. I will be spending mad time there so I have it decked out Cassandra Brown style. Audrey's present contemplating Tiffany's Jewels and Foxxy Brown is repping for the black girls. Meetings are driving me crazy. The other day Grace tried to break bad on me because I wasn't coming to a bonnier meeting. To be real, I don't give two shits about ice breakers with the Freshman and going over the years calendar. All that crap can really be done over e-mail. Anyway her and Camisha really caught feelings, maybe cause I said "The world doesn't revolve around bonnier" You could hear them gasp, but I had to do it! I know theres a difference between being straight to the point and just plain not knowing what to say out your mouth and I was definitely in the straight to the point section. At the end of the day I take care of the business I need to take care of, everything else has just got to take a number and hope its their day cause its my Senior Year and I gotta look out for number one!
The funny thing about this year is that I am soooo soooo uninterested in socializing it only reiterates my whole bitch aura. If you know me, you know IM the nicest person that's on this campus but IM not up for the annual BC of dealing with bitches who still don't wan speak after 4 years of being here. People who have fell off the map and expect you to break your neck for them, and lets not forget the annual freshman show. Most of the freshies are cool but there's a group that I straight don't have the time for. IM all about helping people, but the attitude must be disgarded. In short the year should be interesting. I'll leave it at that. The Greek Drama has also managed to start already. Don't ask how, it just has. The sad part about it is that its always on some subliminal, punk b#@%& stuff.
IM sooooo ready to blow this joint and move to NY. IM hoping to get back up there by the third week of September. I miss my Johnny and I miss the city. I miss the diversity and I miss the realness of the place. Its all good, cause Im back there as soon as I can get there. I was thinking of taking the Chinese bus up and back for $60. I'll have to let you know how that turns out.
Our party is this Friday and Im SUPER excited. My dress is ready, my hair will be done tomorrow and all I need to do is get a push up bra. Just for a little assistance.


Night Yall, I promise to write more.
Holler

Peace Yall

Back at UR....again, for the last time. Last time moving in, last time paying that damn room deposit, and last time living in a dormitory. College is some otherness, I just keep thinking, this is the last time Im gonna have to do all this. Thats the ONLY thing thats getting me through it. The carrying heavy containers of books I didnt resell up flights of stairs, trying to cram my clothes into these little closets, trying to make an uncomfortable space a comfortable one because HEY, I have to live there for 6 monthes. Im done with it all. I was done last year but Im in it to win it so Im gonna finish things up and move on. Soon all this will become slightly dear to me. The last time of stupid things like going to d-hall or walking to class will become so sacred and will mark a period of my life that many say are the best years of your life. If college years are the best years of your life than I think life must be pretty sad. There has got to be something more out there than the little fun we had here partying and being silly. Dear God I pray there is!

Im in this room, got a roomate this year. (sad face) I really wish I could get back to my room in North Court. Basement floor, no windows, no roomate, just me and my space, my couch from the lounge down the hall and my own little exit. Ohhhh the Boom Boom Room. Had a few good times in that room. It was quite a pivitoal point that room, academically and socially. Good times. I'll have to make a trip over to housing and see if its occupide that would be the way to end the year. It would be a nice little space for me considering I need to drop out of existance this last few semeseters. Im trying to make that step from Robins to NYC in one fell swoop and no stops in between. NO trips to my Moms house, no summer job, none of that crap. Just jump right in, and get started. Why wait??

Pre-O starts Saturday, and freshman come the following Wednesday (sad face) followed by upperclassman on that saturday. Im gonna drop off the face of the earth and try to miss alllllllll of that. Not really up for the pointless banter of "Hey how are you???" "How was your summer?" "Where you livin this year???....OH ok , I'll come visit..." I know its formaliitys and I know I'll say it at least 100 times. Thats the way it goes but, it gets you away in a more timely manner and with less drama than if you just avoided the eyes of everyone trying to see how you've progressed or regressed over the summer and kept on about your business.

One Random Thing

Tierra Marie is super wack. I was feeling her single thenI heard parts of the album while in the car with Dwight and she was on some COMPLETE OTHERNESS! " I aint had no Daddy around when I was young, so thats why, Im wildin out...." WTF is she saying. Who writes a song about that crap. I know I was a fatherless child but I really think I came out fine, I know thats kinda debateable but this shit on her album is just wack. Plus Erica said she got booed this past weekend at a RICHMOND club. A RICHMOND Club! If our country asses booed her then you know she must suck.


Alright Im talkin shit and Im tired. Im misspelling stuff ( I guess I do that when Im awake too) so Im about to pack my bag and head to Moore.... UR is on some otherness

Dear summer, I know you gon' miss me

Listen here summer baby, I just believe it's the right thing to do
I got a brand new bitch, corporate America
She showing me a lot of action right now
And I know you put me on my feet and all, but
I mean, it's time for me to grow
You gotta let me go baby, you gotta let me go

I'm done for now, so one for now
Possibly forever, we had fun together
But like all good things, we must come to an end
Please show the same love to my friends
Dear summer


Damn, I cant believe that its over, just like that. After 15 years of summers I have just completed my last one for the rest of my life. From now on Summer is only a season, not a vacation or a marker for the end of a term...just a change in the weather when my dress can change and a sign of when I will have to stop pressing my hair. My last summer before I enter the "real world" and start behaving the way grown folks do. Jay-Z really hit it on the head with that one. It almost updates the feeling you get from Will Smiths "Summer Time". It makes me sort of nostalgic, especially about this past summer.

Top 10 Things I'll Miss about NY
1. HOT 97
Wakeing up to Dear Summer and Ms. Jones in the Morning. NY radio is like nothing else in the world. DC radio is good too but NY is on some otherness.
2. My Haviana's
My feet would get soooo dirty from simply walking back and forth. The city grim clung to me and though I thought it was the most disgusting thing ever it was the city attatching its self to me.
3. Subways
Oh how I will miss my F, 6, and Q trains. The best part of the subway was when there were drummers in them. The sound of the drums billowing through the tunnels of a station is a feeling like no other. The drumming makes you feel alive and makes you feel like there's a rhythm to NY life. I'll also miss the people that ride the trains, I've got stories about those people that you would not believe. NY residents will do crazy things all so they can get across town. The rats the roaches and all, I'm gonna miss everything.
4. My Dreamers.
Uof Dreams is a program made up of people who are dedicated to doing what they love for a living rather than doing what seems to be right or makes the most money for them. The dreamer mentality is one that is courageous and fearless. Not many people can face adversity, face singularity or face themselves. UofDreams allowed its participant's to be happy about their direction and help them to figure out what the direction is.
5. JOHNNY ROCCO!
I cant believe how much I gained from working with this man for 8 weeks. We bonded, I have him under my skin and I care about him. I feel like I understand some parts of him and above anything respect him for who he is. He's made me laugh so much and has taught me so so so much that I can never repay him.
6. 1204 beauty's
My Suitematies were my favorite people in the program and probably the only people I knew in the program. We were a smart, beautiful, and fun room and I miss those girls already.
7. The Old and The Bold
NY men are off the hook and I will miss them. The old ones have no problem talking to you and asking for what they want, while the bold ones will say whatever they can think of to get your attention.
8. NY Hustlers and Bootleggers
I've told stories about them already but no where else will people try to sell you batteries on the public transportation, and no where else will you be able to buy movies before they hit theatres. Bootleggers level the playing field for so many. Not only can the celebs where expensive thousand dollar bags and accessories, but you can too!
9. NY Restaurants
New York has some of the greatest restaurants in the world. You can eat anything from Hotdogs to sushi and Thai food to fine Italian cuisine and back again. You can grab your meal from a Sabret stand and eat as you ride the train or eat lying down on a bed like the Greek eating expensive delectable delights at Duvet.
10. The Masses
Clods and Clods and masses and masses of people. They are everywhere, your never alone whether it be ,morning , noon or night, you can find at least 10 people within 5 feet of you. The city that never sleeps is also the city that never goes home. This aint your "It's 2 am-time to go home-there's a city curfew-the streets are clear city" Not even, this place is bustling constantly! Your never alone and your never without a place to go. The night clubs close at 4 but that doesn't leave home the destination. After hours spots open at 3 and go until 6 am. New Yorkers don't waste a moment.


I'm officially gone. Sitting here in Dumfries VA listening to the silence of suburbia and rural life. VA seems so southern to me now, so country and so small. I'm going through withdrawal and it doesn't feel good.

As far as my to do list...

1.Find metro-sexual Mos Def protege who was fathered by a descendent of Malcolm X and mothered by a black panther.

Well I didn't find anyone worth dating or marrying but I did see a few cuties. I'm not really ready for anything like that anyway, I really feel like I wanna be one of those career women that entertains once in a while but doesn't have an old man. Kinda like Oprah :)

2. Meet, touch, and get picture with Mos Def

I failed, I'm sad to say that I did not even come close to seeing the Mighty Mos in the flesh. I went to Brooklyn everyday and never saw him. Awful. The sad part about it all is that he is performing August 7th with Talib Kweli and Jaguar Wright for $20. I cant talk about it anymore or I might have a breakdown.... next.

3. Attend poetry club

This, I also did not get to do. Unfortunately, I will have to save that one for next time. :(

4. Shop

I really tried to make a special effort to be good and watch my spending. I didn't want to have to call my Mom for money so I tried to limit my shopping as much as I could. Toward the end, once Erica came I kinda went wild, not too wild but lets just say I'm gonna need to rest my Debt card for a while.

5. Drink

I turned 21 the day I moved in to my apartment and I had a great time experiencing all the joys of legal drinking. I've tasted some of the most interesting drinks that you could think of and learned my threshold for alcohol. Don't worry, I never got drunk and really don't plan to. Remember, when you drink you go for a swagger NOT a stagger. Drunk is never sexy!

6. Visit Museums

I visited a few nice museums and say some of the great art that New York is home to. My favorite was the Chanel exhibit at the MET. It was wonderful to celebrate the work of the House of Chanel and to see the direction that Karl Lagerfeld is taking it.

7. Reconnect with NY Fam

I got to get together with my Uncle and Aunt for dinner a few times and got to reconnect with my cousins which was so much fun. I'm happy that I got to see them and catch up.

8. Scope out areas I'd like to live in.

Its official, I will be residing at 70 Washington Place Apartment 9N. All I have to do is get $700,000 and its mine LOL

9. Go to 106& Park ( just kidding)

This was really a joke, Free is gone and I still don't get AJ's hair so I can enjoy it from home.

10. Go to a club that doesn't close at 2am

I didn't do as much partying as I thought I might have liked but I did get to go to a few nice places. Finally when I left the club it was because I was tired, NOT because its closing, or because there was a fight. Still in search of a really fun club but I can feel that my clubbing days are coming to an end. I don't plan on meeting a man and engaging in a serious relationship with him from the club so now its all about backing it up a little and having fun with my friends.

Summers done for me yall, no more of those responcibility free, nothing to do Junes that comes with summer vacation, but not the end of my Wild Junes either, I mean it is my birthday month, and I am grown .

Peace Yall.

What A Week !!!!

Wow, it's been a crazy week and weekend. Two guest one week and lots and lots going on in between. The Highlights? Ok...so....
My lovely friend from John Marshall High came to visit me. Tamara stayed with me for the week and it was super fun! She came with me to work, she came with me to UofDreams weekly seminar, and pretty much everywhere I went except the gym(lol). It was great to catch up with her since I haven't seen her in like 2 years. We visited Time Square and it was almost interesting. We were stopped by weird guys and had a great time being silly in the city. We took a picture with Sponge Bob Squarepants while he sung to us "My Cheri amour" it was very cute. Wednesday we went to the seminar series to hear Deanna Latson speak. Deanna Latson is a widely known health speaker. She promotes healthy eating habits and taking care of your body to prevent unnecessary illness. Her presentation was extremely informative and really persuasive...I mean she almost had me thinking of becoming a vegetarian. After her video that showed a doctor pulling strings of collected fat from a mans arteries (ewwww nasty, I know) I was like THAT'S IT, IM CHANGING MY EATING HABITS. The real deal part of it was how she had devoted her education to nutrition to try and help save her father. Her father was suffering from multiple illnesses. When he adopted her suggested diet he lost 50 pounds and was able to stop taking all the meds his doctors said he couldn't live without. Serious shit ! Tamara and I really tried to consider a vegetarian life, but had cookies later that night....

Thursday was my suitemaites birthday. After a long day of errands for Johnny, Tamara and I decided we would join them for drinks. When we arrived at the Blue Fin we perched ourselves at the bar. We had the cutest little drink, the Blue Fin, Alize with a cute little Swedish fish in it. As we chatted and relaxed an older gentleman approached and began to chat us up. He explained that he had been at an award ceremony that was dull and was glad that he had met some interesting people like us to talk to. This older white man told us how pretty we were and how nice we were to talk to and after ordering us drinks proceeded to invite us to his hotel room at The W to "watch tv". We agreed and ended the night spooning with our new friend Gary.....Not the fuck even, we refused and decided that it was high time we headed home. After our 4 drinks (really two depending on the glass) I of course had a buzz(me being a light weight and all)and thought EVERYTHING was SUPER amusing. We headed to McDonald's and had burgers and apple pies before we retired to the Palladium.

Friday was on some otherness considering I had Tamara in town, had to pick up Erica at 1:40 that afternoon and still had errands to run for Johnny while making every attempt to make it to the boutique by 3:30. Tamara and I went on a journey in Chinatown to find knockoff bags. I still have the same mentality that the knockoffs are impositions on the art form called fashion design and feel increasingly sickened to spot Fendi bags on girls who wear Old Navy flip flops. We picked up Erica and tried to salvage the day be running the errands and ended up making it to Johnny's by 5.

My going away dinner with Johnny and Patrick was Friday night and I decided that it would be better to have Erica and Tamara come with rather than return to NYU. We had fabulous Thai food which is my all time favorite. I think I had a food orgasm b/c everything was sooooooo goood. Johnny and Pactrick were ANGELS to me and my friends and treated us like Princesses. They ordered appetizer and drinks for us and just made my friends feel comfortable and happy. To top it off they paid the whole bill for me plus two broads they had only know for a hot second. I had a Vodka and Cranberry(what has come to be my favorite drink) and was of course SMACKED. Everything was extra extra funny and I could not contain myself. I didn't want to drink, considering I was with my boss and have hopes to work with him later but he encouraged and insisted and it did help me to have a good time. I was really a site, at half a drink consumed I was giggling like I was 2 years old. I had such a great time with them, and even started to tear up thinking about not being with them everyday.

Saturday we slept in and met the lovely Julee , Jenn and Erin for lunch. The luch was fun and it was great to catch up. That night we planned on going out but ended up pretty pissed off with NY for its bad night clubs. 40/40 was wack and on some complete otherness as to who they were letting in the club. As Erica and I stood in line we wondered if we were overdressed or if the club wasn't all that we thought it was. We ended up leaving there before we got in and headed to a rooftop bar to chill. Previously we attempted to go out but ended up at a gay nightclub. When a women invited us to her all girl club that she was starting, we kindly told her that it wouldn't be a fun party without men. She took her cards back and suggested to us some places more suitable.

Otherwise I did a bit of shopping and had a great time experiencing the city with my friends. Im so glad that they came, I felt like I was in a different New York b/c of it. A better one that offered much more.

On Tuesday I walked by the Virgin Mega Store and saw a real live sypher! I was amazed and wanted to stay but was afraid they would not appreciate the groupie-esq attention of two girls who don't rap standing around them watching. I saw the cute NYU boy again standing beside the sypher(which made him cool by proximity ). I told Johnny about him and he laughed at me for not speaking to him or trying to find out his name. Johnny suggested that I wear lip gloss to the gym since I see him at there sometime. His other suggestion was that I walk up to him and grab him by the balls and say "IM CASSANDRA BROWN" I nearly died when he suggested that but considered it briefly, I must admit. I felt a little bad because I wasn't able to dedicate my full attention to Johnny that week but I hope I will make up for it this week. Johnny and Patrick have been insanely nice to me giving me opportunities and being really kind and genuine.


Pactrick got Erica and I tickets to see Blue Man Group which was very kind of him.
We saw the Blue Man Group performance today and were really amazed. I coudnt believe some of the things they did and just how funny and entertaining it was. With paper everywhere and cool light effects I we thought we were at a Rave party. We both agreed that if we were high on XTC or slightly drunk we would have experienced the show on another level.

August 1. What a mess. I feel like summer just started but I will be glad to get back to school. I'll be back to NY the minute I get a break from school and really whenever I just want to be in the city rather than Richmond. Moving day wills soon come and when it does, I wont be looking back to Richmond.

-Peace Yall

Real Friends, Real Gucci's and The Real Deal According to this PrettyFashionista

My time here is drawing to a close. I have exactly two weeks left in NY until I return in September. I plan on making frequent trips so I don't loose my buzz. Yes NY gives me a buzz :)

I went to Canal Street again and immediately after exiting the subways station a little Asian girl approached my roommates, their fam and I about out interest in buying purses. We confirmed our interest and followed this girl that looked to be about 10, 5 blocks from the station. Once we arrived at the unmarked building we were escorted down the hall of a building that held many "studios". We passed women who gave us advise. "Haggle, Haggle Haggle!" they told us. Studio 2 held some of the most amazing replicas of Prada, Fend,Gucci, Louise Vuitton, and Coach bags that you could imagine. The one that I had my eye on, a Coach scribble tote bag was $45 and came in multiple styles. Along with bags you could also purchase, sunglasses by everyone from Christian Dior to Chanel and even Tiffany toggle bracelets and necklaces. The rest of the evening we were courted other merchants of reproduction. Asian women would whisper to us as we walked by " Want Gucci, Coach, Prada??" Its almost interesting. A few weeks ago while shopping with Grace, a man proceeded to attract his clients by repeating "ROLEXROLEXROLEXROLEXROLEXROLEX" at litening speed. I must say, I was almost compelled by his persuasive marketing tactics to buy three or four... They were only $5.


This past Thursday I went to see Jaguar Wright with a former Spider, Jen Coles. The concert was nice and I'm glad I went. I would have otherwise went home had dinner while stealing glances at the cute NYU boy then chilled until gym time. It was good to get out and do something fun instead. I'm looking forward to my friends coming in the next few days, I know I'm gonna have fun with them. They're gonna help me enjoy and wrap up my NY experience. Tamara will be here and I know were gonna have tons of fun. Like I said earlier, go away and you learn who your friends are. I've known Tamara since the 9th grade back at John Marshall High School( JAYEM JUST...ICE) She really knows the meaning of KIT. When I moved to NOVA she wrote me, when I graduated from TC she came up, when I needed to go college shopping she took me, and though I haven't seen her in about two years or so, she's coming to visit me this Monday. Tamara is one of the most intelligent women I know. Ever since Mrs. Carters class, this girl has been on top of her game and handling business like a real women does. She's now graduated from William and Mary and progressing to bigger and better things. Real friends are truly priceless. Following one fabulous friend comes another. Mrs. Erica Engleman is coming and though she annoys the hell out of me most of the time I couldn't ask for a better friend. When you join a Sorority they tell you, or at least my organization told me, point blank, you wont like all of your Sorors. They tell you that you will get to know and you will bond with women that will change your life, well she hasn't done all that, but I do love her crazy self! Ask this girl anything, she's got something to say and has contemplated it to come up with the best solution she can. Why listen to her, well look at her she has her shit together. She is definaltey one of the UR women that I probably would not have known had she not been my LS. And though she is mean to me sometime like the following example...


Auto response from CassandraGarnett: My FRO is like WHOA:-*
covergirl322: ur fro is like no
covergirl322: I love you! Nite
covergirl322: :-D

...She's still fabulous. It's all good Erica, I love you anyway thin haired hooker
Next weekend will be a mini Rho Mu reunion, though missing many of Rho Mu's best we will still have fun like the good old days of yester year. After that its time to pack it back into the van and ride down 95 with the fam to back to Richmond. I'll get to see some of my other real friends who couldn't make it to NY but still show me love. I'll go to the India Arie concert, move into school, help my mom move, start work and prepare for my Fall 05 line . Well its 4 am and the sleepy that came from the 3 glasses of wine at dinner has returned so I'm going to bed again.

Peace

Random Stuff

Its been a crazy few days, doing a lot for work and just trying to enjoy the last weeks I have left. I cant believe that I've been here for 5 weeks. Its all a blur. I feel like it was just June 12th and I was arriving, matter fact it feels like it was just May and I was sad that all my friends were graduating. Time is on some otherness. Its amazing the changes it makes. I have two and a half weeks left and its gonna be a sad day when I gotta turn my back to the city until the next time I can get up here. I'm gonna end it real crazy though. I still have a few visitors on the way. Go away and you really will learn who your friends are. They'll be the ones coming to visit you and talking to you on a regular basis really keeping in touch.

I found an apartment, its a wonderful one bedroom with a home office, 1.5 bath, large living room, in Brooklyn. Its only $700,000 . Its gonna take me a minute to get that down payment.

I went to a tradeshow with Johnny the other day and got to see the buying side of the fashion industry. I SAW KARL KANI, he's shorter than I thought (isn't it funny what the camera can do to make a person seem larger than life but in person they're so normal) He was getting a drink from the bar at the Project Tradeshow and like everyone was spilling it on the floor. It was a men's show so there were tons of SEXXY MENS there and had I known I would have worn something more revealing (just playin) I guess I looked ok cause the press took my picture, I'm telling you the fro is like whoa, it gets them everytime! The best part was seeing all the little Asian men thugged out. Not thugged out on no stupid ass 50cent shit but on some Air Jordan, Nice Denims,and Soul Rebel shirts, baseball caps and a nice chill over the arm. A little thug is always good, you don't want your man running beside you when there's a bug that you need him to kill. I must say I got a little caught up with them and couldn't help but to stare. I have a friend who really loves Asian men and I thought she was crazy but these ones really had me lookin. I called Erica for reinforcement and she reminded me of the well known fact that our Asian friends aren't as well endowed as our black friends(which explains the Asian infatuation with ginseng and the WG groupie love that black men get) and you know that aint cool! So I called it off and started paying attention to more of the men's fashion instead of the men :(


I still haven't found MOS DEF!!

I saw a look alike last night at a party (which turned out to be a waste of cab
fare, no further comment). The look alike kinda walked up to the club and just stood there and that blew his cover. If it were him, I'd think he would get out of something nicer than a cab. I mean, I know he's not on that Landcrusier, Double R type deal but I know he has a fly vehicle and a small entourage of poetic soul croonies.

OH WELLL
Back on the Hunt!

America's Next Top Model

Today was such a busy day! I had to be at the publicists at 9:45am. All too early for my regular schedule of leaving the APT. at 11:15...ok more like 11:45(Been tryin to get this time thing together since Spring 04 ) I had a photo shoot today that I was the stylist for. I must say that it embodied all the stereotypes that you see on television about a fashion shoot. I had a girl act as my assistant that got in my way more than anything else, the photographer communicated like he was the only creative person there and explaining what he wanted was of no use to him. The hairstylist thought she was hot shit even though she kept doing the hair the opposite way of the photographers directions, and the makeup artist was cute but clearly gay (I guess that's what I get for fawning after Metro's) Though all the styles that Johnny and I picked out were hot, the photographer and the damn hairstylist thought they knew best. In the end the pictures came out wonderfully. The most interesting part of the experience was the foreign models who were on their first visit to the US. 6 foot 16 year olds who didn't understand" put this on", I ended up dressing lanky girls from the Czech Republic, and other places in that area. It was like America's Next Top Model in person. I kept hoping Tyra would appear so that I could ask her if she was serious about that song she put out earlier this year or at least Janice Dickinson so that I can see what's preserving her so well. Neither appeared though. Its funny how hair and makeup can change a person so much. They all came in looking like overgrown 10 year olds but left with bouncy hair and makeup that made them look like they were at least 25. We kept wondering why the cleavage just wasn't working and the sequence tube tops kept slipping down but later realized why, looks can be deceiving.

Madison, Park, 5th Avenue

This weekend I enjoyed the finer parts of New York City with my dear friend Grace Holcomb. New York has been her stomping ground in the past and she was more than delighted to come up for the weekend and show me around along with be a great mentor and friend from Richmond, which I miss so much. I was so glad to have her here. I felt like I was in a different New York. One that I liked better and enjoyed much more. New York can be such a lonely place, regardless of how many thousands of people are around. We visited all the fashion capitals of the fabulous NYC including Bergdorf, SAKS, Tiffany, Chanel, Dior, and Bloomingdales for the less expensive side of the fashion world. I enjoyed most Chanel and Tiffany. We visited a place called Serendipity for Frozen Hot Chocolate, which was very good and we ate at a number of fine restaurants that I can still taste! We also saw the Chanel exhibit at the MET and let me tell you, it was splendiferous. I love the city, I really need to be here as soon as possible. I spoke with my boss on Friday about where the best places were to live in NY and he suggested Brooklyn, I agreed with him considering it is the birthplace of my first love MOS DEF :) Maybe I'll end up as his neighbor and we can climb into each others window at night and make love. Just playing...No I'm actually serious...
Goodnight

Summer Summer Summer Time

I saw that video by Will Smith and its amazing how that song can really put you in the summer mood. Listen to it and you really feel like your on a hot July day in the old neighborhood trying to look cute for your summer crush, staying outside allllll day until like 8pm ripping and running. Anyway, I had a great time today at my bosses cookout. The invite was as follows...

Johnny and Patrick
invite you to an
Italian-American
4th of July
Celebration!!

Release your inner guido/guidette this 4th of July in Carrol Gardens, the heart of old-school Italian Brooklyn!!

BBQ starts at 2:30-ish and lasts until.....well, fuhgeddaboudit!!!


To Dress the Part:
Ladies: Big hair, big nails, beach baubles
Gents: Wife beaters, gold chains, smelly cigars

I arrived to find my boss donned in multiple silver chains a visor and silver shoes. I had so much fun as he encouraged me to take shots and try the "snausages" as he put it. We chilled for most of the evening, and I chattered with his over the top friends seeing, just how they got down as an Italian troop. When it got dark and I had had two drinks already we retired to the roof top to watch the fireworks which was definitely one of the top things to do on my "Do Before I Die" list. Really beautiful sight to see from that far up, much better than watching them on the television as I normally do in Richmond. After the fireworks I decided it was best I headed home, I didn't want to encounter all the Brooklyn crazies as I walked back to the subway. The train, coming from Coney Island was as the whole of New York seems to be, filled with young couples that effing make me sick. I stood in the middle of all of it and just held on the the pole waiting for Broadway and Lafeyette to arrive. One tear. No work tomorrow so I may just hang around the Palladium or go to the Beach with my boss and his partner. Everyone really should have gay people in their lives, they make it so much more entertaining. Next weekend Grace comes and the weekend after the next one Erica comes! I'm excited to have people I know around, they'll help me to really enjoy my last 5 weeks here. Time is flying by like I don't know what. Its July 4th already, before you know it, it will be August 1 and its all down hill from there. The count down begins and your sitting in somebody's class trying to remember how to write because its been that long. You'll be excessively excited about the (AKA, Alpha, Kappa, DST, Q, ... )Party at (UR, VCU, State, Norfolk State, JMU, UVA, William & Mary...). You'll rush to the nearest cheap clothes store to buy a cute shirt to wear with jeans and pumps and get back into the swing of college life. Next year will be my last year so I'll definitely by trying to milk it for all its worth. After that its the real world for this PrettyFashionista and who knows what else. NY ...for sure, Marriage...who knows, Kids ... well as my favorite Italian would say ,"fuhgeddaboudit"!!!

Peace Yall

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Im in a bit of a funk tonight, just feeling a little indifferent. I had a pretty good day today with Johnny. We worked on a garment that he wants to put out in the fall and its gonna be hot shit! I sewed on coins and ran around Brooklyn looking for RIT dye in Golden, Teal and Brown. I feel a little preoccupied with something but I cant quite put my finger on what it is. I just dont know what to do about it. Im iching to get that Keisha Cole(The Way it Is) and Raheem Devaughn (The Love Experience) CD. Ive been waiting for them since like May! Tommorrow that might be my goal and be the way I wrap up my evening. I suggest you go and pick them up as well. Im going to an African Art festival tomorrow and Saturday evening and Sunday, just because I think it might be a good environment for me. Im going BMS cause I dont really feel like coordinating anything and I'd hate to drag someone to something like this and it end up being wack. Oh well, we shall see, hope I meet Mos Def and he falls in love with me and we run off to his Brooklyn Penthouse and he sings "The Panties" to me and we have hot sex until 12:00 Tuesday afternoon then I can go back to work... I do have an internship to be at!

City Breathing

Its raining up here in the city and it kinda brings a peaceful sense to the chaos.Ive really been doing a lot of thinking about things. Mostly pertaining to my future and after graduation but in general too. I walked around Brooklyn more today and saw downtown, saw the people and really just absorbed the atmosphere. If you haven't understood me yet, I love New York. I had a long conversation with my sister today and I'm trying to persuade her to move up here too. I think it would be great for my niece and nephews and even better for her. She lives in Arkansas and I think that's too slow for the person she is, just the way Richmond is too slow for the person I am. I'm excited about the fall and getting things rolling but I'm also trying to hold on to the weeks I have left here in NY. I think I'm undergoing that "change" that most people experience when they go abroad. Its a good thing, a little self reflection, a little growing, a little getting to know what you want out of life, all that jazz. I'm glad, when I look at my future I'm excited, I don't feel confused, or scared. I don't know where I'm headed but I know its gonna be off the hook. I know I'm gonna be happy, and I know I'm gonna be satisfied cause I think that's the person I am. I like to take things as far as I can, that's how my mind works. Sometimes that can be seen as annoying, extra, stuck up or just being damn right overbearing, but If I'm gonna put CASSANDRA BROWN beside it, it's gotta be the shit, nothing less.

LOVE

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

What you wont do,do for love\you try everything\but you dont give up

Sucker for love

Cleavage

Today I learned some disturbing information. Today I was assaulted with information that I was better off not knowing. Today I learned of Ass cleavage.

As far as I knew any siteing of a persons ass crack was 100%, completely, totally, accidental. According to the New York Observer the only persons with true accidental ass cleavage were plumbers, and old men who have abandoned belts for whatever reason. Apparently, this expose is not only purposeful but considered attractive. Women are very much familiar with the field of cleavage, considering the various forms that we use and abuse for good and evil. There is the up and coming Toe cleavage, and every mans favorite, boob cleavage. With the invention of low rise pants more and more women have been subject to ass cleavage, as many of us know it comes with the territory of hip hugging jeans. Though viewing each others ass cracks is disturbing, the tasteful women simply looks the other way and rubs her eyes to ensure that her retinas are still intact, rather than shout out in disgust. Tact is needed, for we would hate to have someone say to us in public, " Hey ______ your ass crack is hanging out of your pants."

More disturbing though is the idea that not only are women bearing all but men are too. I'm not sure about anyone else but a mans ass is not attractive, big or small, it matters not ( though small is preferred as a mans ass should not be bigger than his women's). Particularly disturbing for me is the information I learned about my boss from this article. Brace yourself...

Johnny Rocco, 31, owner of an eponymous boutique in Boerum Hill, often wears Seven
jeans for women, which better complement his body type. "The jeans for boys are
made for straight bodies. I have curves! I'm not a skateboarder boy! I come
in, and I come back out." On this particular Sunday, X-ray vision would have
shown that underneath his low-rise cut-offs, he was just wearing a take a big
step back...a "microfiber" jock strap. It's "breathable for summer," he
explained. "Nothing is worse than having tight elastic around your skin." Men,
do you love yourlowrise jeans but don't want to spend all day at work in your
jock strap? Are you too prudish to go commando? Try 2(x)ist No Show briefs:
low-cut for low-riding jeans or pants! One hundred percent cotton! Plus,
they're guaranteed to make your dick look 12 times its normal size.) Back to
Johnny Rocco: Why flash crack? "It's naughty. I was being naughty! It's more
like flirting with your body instead of words. It's the truth! "

At that point I wished that I had not read the article. His excitement at being quoted in the NY Observer is what prompted me to read. He asked that I pick up 2 or 3 copies before our meeting last night, as I waitedpublicistspublicist to arrive I read and after spending two hours with
Johnny and his partner I have from then on been unable to look him in the face.

The article poses a very good question...

What next? Will men become late adopters of every female fashion trend of the
last decade? Will great herds of dudes stampede over to Bliss and the Red
Door for Brazilians? Will Western civilization relinquish its standards
altogether about what actually constitutes clothing? Will men amble about in
Xtina-like chaps? Will the banana hammock become acceptable not just at the beach, but at the office?

I say, Metro is one thing, gay is another. Both are ok, but my man better not ever ask to borrow my low rise thong so he can were his low rise Sevens!!!!

Anybody feel me?

Kinky Twist, Micros and Cornrows Oh My!!!!

My first day off. Ahhhh, as if I've been working hard. I have, but I have a much better internship than many of the other"Dreamers" in the Uof Dreams program. 12-5 work hours, Mondays off mostly, running around the city shopping, magazine clipping, online shopping...Hardworking!

I ventured into the infamous Harlem today, not nearly as bad as one would think. I encountered no crack heads and had no trouble with crazys. My purpose was to find a place to get my hair braided for as cheap as possible. I was pursuing a $150 hair style for $40. I was told this was possible by the lovely Torera Akinola who said that talking them down was very doable. In the end I went to the first place I could find and haggled down from $90 to $75. Not my goal of $40 but pretty good for what could have been $150 if I were desperate(which I was but stupid and loaded with money I am not) When I walked in you would think I was naked b/c everyone turned and looked at me like I was crazy. A women ushered me outside were I told her I only had $50 somehow she found another $25 that I could spare and we settled. An ATM visit later I was in her chair and she was pulling the skin off my head :) I suppose I should have visited a few other locations before I committed because the lack of English spoken was baffling. The African women did speak English but I suppose decided that there were things that only they needed to know and discuss. Around 5 the kids started to arrive and that's when all hell broke loose. The children ran up and down the very narrow aisle in the middle of a shop the size of ...Some small place. The smell of African food permeated the air and I soon grew nauseous :) Five hours later, I was released from the death grip clutch of Miss Fatima at Good Price African Hair Braiding. I visisted the Ab Fab Julee Wilson, and got a tour of her tight ass apt. I'm so excited to graduate and move to NY. To so many that's a pipe dream but its what I really wanna do. I love the city, as I'm sure you can tell, and I love the whole atmosphere.
The Dream

• Entry level Job
• Mid level salary say 35-42 ish(It says dream at the top for a reason!)
• Nice size, well kept apt. Single occupancy
• Low rent/mortgage
• Small social circle, with satellite friends
• Metro Gentleman Caller
• Wealthy Mentor ( better know as a Sugar Daddy)

Hopefully I can walk in the stiletto prints of my fabulous #10. We shall see, we shall see

BTW- Fast food restaurants up here have drink bags! The drink comes in a bag, a cup, and a bag so your to go food can really be to go and not , To go but be careful you don't spill your drink while your trying to have fast food.

-Also I saw like six subway rats on the way home, not as big as they are legendarily said to be but rodents none the less.

Going to bed, even though I don't have to be at work until 12 I still get up for breakfast and less crowded gym time.

Smooches